“There’s a destructive urge in people, the urge to rage, murder and kill. And until all of humanity, without exception, undergoes a metamorphosis, wars will continue to be waged, and everything that has been carefully built up, cultivated and grown will be cut down and destroyed, only to start all over again!”
― Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl
I don’t have anyone that introduced me to Doctor Who, I found it by myself one day during the darkest period in my life, just when the new series started with Christopher Eccleston. Because of some bad stuff that happened during my puberty and early adolescence, I had been sinking deeper and deeper into a depression without even realising it and around 2005/2006 I had reached my lowest point. In the end, all I did was eat, sleep, go to school and repeat that pattern like a robot, day after day. I couldn’t get excited about stuff anymore, which is the worst for a geek/nerd/fangirl like myself, who used to love geeking out over things.
However, slowly, I started to get invested in the show and the words and actions of the Doctor always cheered me up. His kindness, compassion, bravery, heroism and wisdom started chiseling away at the wall built around my heart and helped me free up my emotions again.
I reached out and started talking to a psychologist and began the fight to get better again. I’m still fighting that battle, but I’m getting better, day by day. I’m also able to get excited by stuff again, which I’m so thankful for! I’m discovering all kinds of books, movies, tv series, music and other awesome stuff I missed out on in the past 10 years because my mind was too clouded with depression back then.
No matter all the awesome geeky/nerdy things of this past decade I’m catching up on, Doctor Who will always be number one for me. So I want to say thank you so very much to Doctor Who and to The Doctor for helping me take that first step! Like Vincent says: Your kindness (was and) is most welcome!
"The Doctor showed me a better way of living your life."
Posted it a while back, but since it’s #NewToWho week I thought I’d reblog it. This is the story of how my depression died (slight paraphrase)…
Okay, so I need a little help from my (I think Dutch?) followers if that’s okay? So a couple of days ago one of you reblogged a post with a picture of a Sherlock cosplay on a seesaw (wip in Dutch) by himself. Directly under that, the same person reblogged a drawing of the same scenario: Sherlock by himself on a seesaw/wip and I think both of them were accompanied by something like the “I don’t have friends” quote. I’m looking for that drawing, but I cannot for the life of me find it again. If you reblogged it or at least know who did, could you please help me out here?
This is me today!
So I’ve been playing Neopets on and off again for the past 13 years (the Uni is still my original pet!) and I decided to have them dress up to support my country in the World Cup… Go Netherlands!
This is my little Purple Book of Awesomeness. When I’m feeling down, for whatever reason, I’ll go and look for a quote that fits the situation and read it over and over again until I’m feeling a bit better. As I find new inspiring quotes, I’ll keep adding them to this book.
This is what happens when Ramadan and the World Cup collide. The Netherland’s match began at 22h and we were allowed to eat at 22.05h. So I’m watching the match and eating some snacks for dinner at the moment.
All the marvel art I did for the Draw Yourself Challenge so far! I thought I’d put them in one post c:
To clarify the art:
- I am a muslim girl who wears the hijab and prefers to wear long/loose things that go below the butt
Reblogging again because i just added Stark and Banner~
There was a new fabric at Spoonflower, so you could order a free test swatch to try it out. I used the fandom design I made for myself recently (using the fandom flags from fandom-mused-fandom-games). It turned out awesome! Now I only need to think about what I’m gonna do with it. Any ideas?
I’ve been a bit busy this last week, so I’m a bit late to the party, but I still want to wish all my fellow Muslims Ramadan Mubarak!
Had a board game meeting at my dad’s place yesterday. I’d had some last minute cancellations, so it was a small ‘meeting’ but for me that didn’t take away any of the fun; I had a blast! During the day, I played Fluxx and Elder Sign with shadowskittle and during the night I played Magic with my best friend. The sweets were brought by my best friend. She said she immediately had to think of me when she saw them… ;)
Miss Merry of Hufflepuff
I was commissioned a while back by TheMerrysoul to draw her in Hogwarts uniform, Hufflepuff, if you please. Gotta say I loved drawing her. I can’t say that I’ve seen a hijab-wearing Hogwarts student before, so I had to do a little research and come up with my own design. Squee, saw soo many pretty head veil designs and pins! (I love fashion!) In the end I went for something similar to what she wears but played with the side of her veil and gave her Quidditch-inspired pin. The four balls representing the quaffle, 2 bludgers and snitch lined up against a snitch wing. What’s funny is sometime later we got into Pottermore and she got QueenWing in her name. XD Right on!
Anyways, her birthday was last month, so as a little bonus, I colored a chibi lineart pic she commissioned and added the Hufflepuff common room from Pottermore (cuz my backgrounds are awful!) and her Hufflepuff crest since I totally forgot to add it when I gave her the pic the first time, I’m sorry!). Merry and I have been exchanging e-mails since then, talking about life, family, our respective homes (mine being in Las Vegas, US, hers a town by London, UK), the Batfamily/DC characters in Hogwarts and my HP/DC fanarts as seen through the eyes of the kids in the pediatric ward at the hospital she works at.
All in all it’s been an awesome friendship we’ve struck up thanks to fandom and tumblr. It has touched my life in ways I never imagined an online friendship could. I’m very grateful to her for introducing my work to other people, children especially, and I’m happy and thankful that my silly little pictures have brought them some comfort and distraction from their pain. In doing so their stories have given me strength to keep going during what has been a very difficult summer for me. Even just yesterday when I was feeling tired and defeated due to my financial and family situation, I got two e-mails in response to a chibi picture I drew for Merry. The kids had written a story about the picture! Omigod, how I cried and laughed. I can’t wait to draw more pictures. I’ll be sharing that chibi picture soon and with the kids’ story. But for now I wanted to thank Merry for giving me this wonderful experience. I hope you like the finished pic Merry! :) Talk with you soon! ^_^
"They didn’t allow me to become a nurse because of my hijab. Thank you, I became a doctor instead" #BURN
I don’t think people realise how hard it is to re-discover the person you were before depression or even try to remember your own personality